For those who believe #covidisahoax , I kindly suggest that you start cigarette smoking to help relax you…

For a long time being the freak of nature that I am, I’ve kind of I case wasted so much time wanting to believe that like, science was real.

Especially this year, being terror stricken about the whole COVID-19 crap, worrying about it killing innocent people, freaking out about the trauma medically and mentally it’s caused our healthcare professionals and first responders, in addition to the supposed survivors of what I think quite a few people are calling this, a “plandemic” and that lot of science and stuff on the news is fictional.

I know for me whether it is or not, when it comes to things that I’ve been embarrassed about, such as about being a long term cigarette smoker, as I’ve been led to believe in the last 35 1/2 years that I’ve been smoking that like there’s carcinogens in cigarettes, but maybe carcinogens aren’t real either and I’ve never gotten sick from smoking, as I got diagnosed with asthma before I ever picked up a cigarette at the age of 15 1/2 .

And smoking does help a lot to relax me, so it’s doing me a lot of good, so maybe those who are stressed from what I will now believe that those morons behind mainstream media have no idea what’s healthy or not or those so called doctors who also say smoking is a bad thing have no idea what they are talking about when it comes to ‘rona and smokes.

I know in my case where being fat has been an issue because it’s made me ugly, it’s never been a medical health issue for me and I’m beginning to think that while people might want to think about losing weight if they want to, if they feel or are ugly like me, if I can be fat and not be unhealthy because of it, why there’s a lot of people where maybe if fat people and thin people die due to something like a heart attack, maybe they made God mad or something or are bad people and its has NOTHING to do with science or medical malarkey.

I feel SO stupid, having believed medicine as a science and art form, all my life and I’ve wasted all this time up until now, so foolishly thinking that there was a need for medical activism.

Especially, lately I’ve been super sad , as a friend’s 8 year old child was recently diagnosed with DIPG, a supposedly aggressive form of brain cancer that is always fatal, supposedly, with the median survival time is approximately less than a year from being diagnosed.

But, worse than her so called cancer, maybe in her case I’ve been wasting all this time reading pediatric neuro-oncology studies trying to find out something or someone that might be able to save her or even caring.

She seems like a sweet kid, but for all I know, she could be a serial killer!!!

And I’m just flooded with all these other mistakes I’ve made believing in so called “science”.

I actually had my children vaccinated being dumb enough to listen to their doctors when they were young and while one is 28 and the other is almost 18, what if something happens because of that???

So, here’s to me turning a new leaf and trying to be less of a libtard, even though I’ve always tried to be more in the middle with my beliefs.

From now on, I am going to think and believe that advocating that people have a right to a safe and peaceful right to their lives online and offline , is ridiculous.

And I’m going to also stop pleading for people to try to agree to disagree, peacefully.

I don’t wanna to go to jail, so I’m just going to be steadfast that I know everything and I’m always right and for how long it takes, argue with people online to let them know how wrong they are.

Especially, I’m just not made to be violent and again I think doing something that would land me in jail or prison, being in those places might be kind of a drag.

And I’m not sure if one is allowed to smoke in jail, although they should be able to!!!



So, anyways back to the whole plandemic thing, if I am not going to do the whole medical activism thingy anymore, I still kinda like wanna write so I’m just pick different causes to do activism for such as:

1. Blind people should have the right to drive
2. Blind people should have the right to hunt with a gun
3. People should be able to drink alcohol and operate a motor vehicle
4. People should be able to smoke everywhere including schools,hospitals and daycares, as well as being able to go anywhere even when they feel really ill, as a lot of people have every right to believe that contagion, pathogens and carcinogens aren’t real things, as if God loves them they will be fine, if he doesn’t , they must be bad people and that’s why they get sick

So, I’m going to get right on working on those causes above, where people’s civil liberties are being so infringed upon, right after I come back from going outside to have a cigarette, as my own civil liberties are being infringed upon not being able to smoke inside my own apartment!!!

Important Note: Yes, I absolutely am, in my own clever and charming way making fun of conspiracy theorists, COVID-19 and science deniers and anti-vaxxers because even if beliefs aren’t hatefully rooted, they still are just as adversely life altering, if not potentially deadly.

You’re more than welcome to disagree, try to be a lil more clever than being a bully or making a death threat, though.

So… if you do disagree, try to do so, similar in the spirit I wrote this blog, as just because something doesn’t have an adverse effect on you/me, doesn’t mean it doesn’t have potential horrific consequences for another by using logic and reason, not unproven conspiracy theories.

Also note: I am not making fun of those who rely on faith or are deeply religious. I wouldn’t ever do that even if I WAS NOT an ordained minister, which I actually am.

I guess the best way I can defend being an actual medical activist and believer in science is a hypothetical situation:

Your place of worship or your home is on fire, you don’t assume it’s an act of God, that the fire isn’t real and/or a threat and you don’t just count on prayer for the fire to go out.

I’d hope in that instance, you would actually also call the fire department and/or 911 and/or emergency services in your country of residence!!!

An unusual solution to consider for #antimaskers who resent congregate limitations in the era of #COVID19 , as it applies to private places or places of worship…

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/living-automatic/202007/why-dont-people-wear-masks-during-covid-19

https://theconversation.com/the-constitution-doesnt-have-a-problem-with-mask-mandates-142335

https://youtu.be/MzGnX-MbYE4

Important Disclaimers: I am NOT a clinically trained medical, mental health or in matters of public safety.

The reason for this blog though, unfortunately kind of negates or at least should hopefully create a civil discussion, where I usually add for those in medical or mental health crisis need to seek acute care, immediately but depending on circumstances stated in this blog of why this discussion needs to take place, NOW on alternative treatment ideas in circumstances discussed in this blog ONLY.

***

I’m grieving as an activist who wishes more than anything that people could concentrate on what unites us as humans versus what divides us.

I’m heartbroken that people for the most part, can’t agree to respectfully disagree anymore as daily events highlight tragically highlight how violent disagreements of opinion and beliefs of have escalated.

And that rights that should be fundamental to all, a right to a safe and peaceful life should extend to all human beings regardless of race, religion, profession, political beliefs, gender and sexual identification, appearance and body size regardless of how much or how little space people take up are ceasing to matter to so many.

The general election alone, because of all that, would’ve made of 2020 a terrifying year given how we divided we are not just as a nation but that division causing so much violence and loss of life.

Then add COVID-19.

I don’t necessarily believe in the meme I used for this blog.

Meaning, I don’t believe in Karma.

Too many bad things, if not catastrophic, traumatic, life threatening and life ending events happen to good people of all ages, everyday whether it’s intentional or not.

And there are others who do horrible things and never have consequences for them, ever.

The majority of the blogs that I’ve written lately in the last several years about people’s right to a safe and peaceful life.

That someone’s personal liberties shouldn’t effect that right to another’s safe and peaceful life.

In my case as it applies to novel coronavirus, I wear masks and social distance the little I get out.

I have asthma, as well as a host of other medical health issues so the amount I get out it limited, as wearing a mask makes me dizzy.

I’m not about as controversial as I’m about to get as what I’m about I’m going to state, looking to argue on here with anyone.

I do believe though at this point for how divided people are and it’s possible if not probable of some who are quite hatefully in their division are about to hate me, as well as what I have to say for those who are anti-mask, anti social distancing and that’s if one believes that novel coronavirus exists and has and will continue to kill people, if not ruin their lives should they survive.

IF people feel that strongly that COVID-19 is either a hoax or taking precautions infringes on their personal liberties, I don’t think anything I say or anyone else will change one’s mind.

I DO though believe if you feel that strongly and live your life according to those beliefs that you should do so with other like minded people in private places like homes and places of worship.

AND, I also believe you should have an advance health directive with a DNR and DNI should you get novel coronavirus get very sick and if you can’t rethink your right to believe and act without taking precautions to not be a threat to another’s life.

So that will help innocent others, if you in fact find that you might have been wrong in thinking novel coronavirus was a hoax and that precautions in public and the limitations on people congregating in private places and places of worship if one felt their civil liberties were infringed on were really not to infringe on any one.

And it’s one thing to bet one’s life on your own belief but in this case, the risk applies to innocent others when it comes to a deadly for many, airborne contagion.

I’ve had an advance health directive for over 2 years. One can find out more information about their particular state’s requirements for it by using a search engine.

Because my AHD does have a DNR/DNI request with only comfort cares but was written 2 years ago, which in my case if I’d get COVID I would just quarantine and die at home, as I’m immunocompromised and I don’t think I’d survive it.

And I’ve had the tough conversation with loved ones about AHD and the fact when I wrote, in my case when the time comes I had already planned on dying alone.

Others circumstances, that’s if others are actually still reading this, well you’ll have to think should you be wrong, of how you want novel coronavirus life and death wishes executed, thoughtfully with your
loved ones feelings in mind and whether or not you have the right to risk as well as further burden healthcare systems should you get sick enough to need to seek medical attention, let alone be hospitalized for it.

And while advanced health directives are for adults to decide when it comes to medical and death planning, as it applies to COVID-19 should you choose to do an AHD, NOBODY has that right to make that decision for vulnerable people who might be exposed and/or children on whether they should seek medical care for them, which should be done immediately whether it’s novel coronavirus related or anything health issue that jeopardizes one’s health .

I’m not being harsh or a hater of those who I can’t understand how they can’t accept how dangerous novel coronavirus is, or if they do but irrationally think they won’t get it, of if they’ll get it but it won’t be life threatening or they’ll get it and think at the time that they are ready to die, but if they get it but change their mind when they actually are potentially dying from novel coronavirus thinking that they deserve medical treatment.

I’m just hoping people will carefully think about what I’m saying realizing that I as a medical activist but non medical professional took an oath to do no harm.

HOWEVER, I needed to stay what I’ve stated in this blog because I think and am heartbroken about people who did take COVID-19 seriously and took precautions to protect themelves and others, like physicians and first responders who did die from novel coronavirus or got really sick from it.

As well novel coronavius just doesn’t have consequences due to lack of preventative measures on them the patients themselves, it has the ability to potentially jeopardize the well being if not lives of those who do everything they can to protect the well being of not just people’s loved ones but the general public at large.

I’m also devastated thinking about the impact of the delay in diagnosis of other potentially fatal diseases in people where novel coronavirus could potentially kill someone who’s thought to not be in a high risk group, as well as the continued great need that there’s a delay in being diagnosed or getting treatment for medical and mental health care, once the virus is contained, of what will happen to further to health care systems, their employees and patients for those who survive and the human beings who won’t be able to thrive let alone who won’t survive, with so many resources and people will be taxed inconceivably, irrevocably and harmfully for many years to come.

So, hopefully this can be discussed with input regardless of people’s beliefs that concentrate on the fact that we all have a right to a safe, healthy and peaceful life and people need to believe and behave in a manner that their personal civil liberties cannot and should not have uncivil horrific consequences for any other.

Note: It’s okay to disagree with me or another. It’s NEVER okay to harass or bully myself or another and because I’ve received death threats on other controversial blogs of mine, know that they will be reported to the proper authorities .

And just something to ponder for those who hatefully harm both on and off the internet, while it’s NEVER the right thing to do, just think of the person you harmed actually had a skillset to not only improve or better your life when it comes to another topic, if not had the skills to save your life or someone you love.

#SuicidePrevention help for those who are frontline workers in the era of #COVID19 who know how to save others lives BUT not their own….

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Emotional Wellbeing During the COVID-19 Outbreak

https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

Important Disclaimers: I am NOT a clinically trained medical or mental health professional, nor do I have any training in public safety.

I will always advise those in crisis seek immediate professional assistance from emergency services, going to the closest acute care facility or contacting above links for help.

The BUT though of why people especially physicians, nurses and first responders who know the resources but for reasons that I’ll address in blog, when in crisis themselves, would be the last people on the planet to actually contact them.

So, while the resources posted above are either for those who don’t know about the resources and are in need of them or  really are in hopes for those people who know crisis resources due to profession to have a change of heart or mind, but if they aren’t able to, to talk more about their suicidal ideation by seeking other avenues of support that hopefully can help with bring some calm, comfort and clarity, which is so hard to come by, when one is in actual crisis.

But if one is not able to, something I understand, as someone who’s struggled with suicidal ideation knows all the resources, knows and has saved other people’s lives but has struggled when it’s come to saving my own life, hopefully this will help.

I don’t though want to trigger anyone, if topic matter is not able to provide constructive help, hope and healing, I beg of you to find something that will help you find the support you need to get through the crisis you are dealing with.

***

IF a picture is worth a thousand words, the above picture quote in this blog is worth about 10 million.

I’m not digressing by saying that, it just says as concisely and correctly as possible, how people who are struggling with suicidal thoughts.

The target population of this blog, is physicians, other frontline workers, first responders who are at risk of suicide, not that I don’t hope that what I say could help anyone who may be in need, and while I’ve addressed multiple times for suicide prevention/awareness in society, I’ve only addressed this in physician populations only once before prior to the COVID-19 era.

As a non clinical professional who still in a roundabout way treats patients (bariatric surgical complication patients) but more of a last responder than a first one, having medical and mental health crisis due to my own bariatric complications that were unpleasant, unprecedented, life threatening and unpredictable even after they were no longer life threatening, for years that have left me for almost 1/3rd of my life now, to live a life with a new normal, I know but only a tiny bit but so well the struggle and the suffering.

Just like most medical professionals, frontline workers and first responders didn’t need COVID-19 to know the fragility and complexity of disease to humans, it’s just that now we are all are confronted by so much more unprecedented unpredictable crisis beyond what even the most stable of psyches couldn’t still possibly comprehend and process constructively, especially in a global state of crisis.

The thing first and foremost is the realization, you didn’t sign up for this, while none of us did, those who spent years in medical school or some formal medical, mental health or first responder training there was really no way to fully psychologically prepare any one regardless of specialty to the challenges and crisis professionally you’re all facing, let alone the personal ones.

If one has taken the Hippocratic Oath, that was to vow to not do intentional harm, it wasn’t to say that as much of a calling wanting to save others lives is, that it is to be at your own peril and the ones you love, all day, everyday with not just a lack of essential tools but no back up support in sight with all the unknowns that we still have with the pandemic.

The point I’m trying to make, is if the reason why you’re reading this, finding that you’re psychologically drowning in the abundance of others medical and psychological suffering, as well as your own, I’m not going to tell you that you don’t have a right to feel the way you feel.

Because you absolutely have every right to feel overwhelmed, overworked and unsupported and the devastation that comes with that  with no end that’s close in sight with the pandemic.

I’m also not going to throw out all the reasons why it’s wrong for you to be suicidal, that doesn’t help.

As well intentioned as hokey quotes like “put your hand over your heart and feel your heartbeat, that’s purpose and your life matters’ or harsher quotes that claim “suicide ends your suffering and just transfers it to another”, that isn’t going to help either, it’s  just going to make you feel worse.

What I am going though to now ask of you, is where you are now, emotionally?

Thinking about suicide, as a possible path out of your suffering?

Actually having a plan, with means and a date and your reasons regardless if you’ve wrote them out or not?

Now, I am going to ask you that if you are acutely suicidal and are unwilling to seek out professional help, that if you cannot bear right now to see that suicide is not the only path that’s left for you yet, to at least think about postponing it, where you are willing to try and understand better the trauma and grief that’s behind that current chosen path for you as a Plan A and maybe for the time being, make it a Plan B,C,D,E or never, but you may not be ready not to have it as an option.

One thing that is not talked about in the complexity of suicidality, is that while grief and trauma play into it, there is that part where when some of us who’ve tried to die by suicide, there is sometimes a complex component that can contain a misplaced sense of thinking and finding comfort that our suffering would finally be over.

This is not the place but it bears mention, as I’m duty bound and ethically committed to doing right by people in crisis and I don’t want to hurt anyone who might be reading this blog, who’s lost a loved one due to suicide, where again you’re not the target audience for this blog and I do address that in other blogs of mine.

The hopes that I have for physicians, nurses, first responders who are suicidal is that they ideally will get the help they need from others.

But if there is an unwillingness to do that, to try and honor the grief one is experiencing and the trauma and hopefully it will spark the realization that your life right now being in jeopardy, is the priority and hopefully getting you to see that the tools you have to save others lives can be directed in saving your own life, if there is an unwillingness to get professional help.

There is more initiatives now that see the psychological toll but there has to be more plans in place to get more medical staff in the frontlines, not just because of concern that is justified with frontline staff getting COVID-19, as well as other medical health issues that don’t stop just because of the pandemic but because burnout and suicide in physicians and frontline, first responders was an issue prior to the pandemic.

Please know that if you’re a physician, frontline and/or first responder who’s despondent there is help and hope for you, the peace though you desperately need right now, can happen in small doses, as the trauma this has caused, isn’t close to being over either in society or in your psyche but progress can be made where despair isn’t all consuming, as I’m not going to lie and say that it’s a matter of mindset that’s causing your horrific suffering, or that how you feel is going to completely go away soon, as it may not. as it’s the trauma, grief and fear of helplessness and being so overwhelmed in such unprecedented circumstances that cause the despondency and working to overcome it where it isn’t a risk to your life, as far as suicide, will take time, trying a combination of therapies.

And again, I’m so sorry for all of you being so tested and for your sacrifice and suffering the trauma you’ve experienced and your grief.

I hope and pray  though you can find it within yourself your value as a human first, as well as a healer that deserves to take time you may need to work on your own healing before you can save more lives but if you never save another life but your own, I hope you can see the heroes that you are and have always been and always will be.

I can’t stress again, I hope you get outside professional help but if you can’t, I hope you give yourself the dedication and attention to saving your own life like you would with another.

Sending peace and love and hopes and prayers that those who need it will accept that from me and so many who are wanting to help, having some understanding of why you are where you are emotionally…

#SuicidePrevention help for those who are frontline workers in the era of #COVID19 who know how to save others lives BUT not their own….

http://www.befrienders.org
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Emotional Wellbeing During the COVID-19 Outbreak

Important Disclaimers: I am NOT a clinically trained medical or mental health professional, nor do I have any training in public safety.

I will always advise those in crisis seek immediate professional assistance from emergency services, going to the closest acute care facility or contacting above links for help.

The BUT though of why people especially physicians, nurses and first responders who know the resources but for reasons that I’ll address in blog, when in crisis themselves, would be the last people on the planet to actually contact them.

So, while the resources posted above are either for those who don’t know about the resources and are in need of them or  really are in hopes for those people who know crisis resources due to profession to have a change of heart or mind, but if they aren’t able to, to talk more about their suicidal ideation by seeking other avenues of support that hopefully can help with bring some calm, comfort and clarity, which is so hard to come by, when one is in actual crisis.

But if one is not able to, something I understand, as someone who’s struggled with suicidal ideation knows all the resources, knows and has saved other people’s lives but has struggled when it’s come to saving my own life, hopefully this will help.

I don’t though want to trigger anyone, if topic matter is not able to provide constructive help, hope and healing, I beg of you to find something that will help you find the support you need to get through the crisis you are dealing with.

***

IF a picture is worth a thousand words, the above picture quote in this blog is worth about 10 million.

I’m not digressing by saying that, it just says as concisely and correctly as possible, how people who are struggling with suicidal thoughts.

The target population of this blog, is physicians, other frontline workers, first responders who are at risk of suicide, not that I don’t hope that what I say could help anyone who may be in need, and while I’ve addressed multiple times for suicide prevention/awareness in society, I’ve only addressed this in physician populations only once before prior to the COVID-19 era.

As a non clinical professional who still in a roundabout way treats patients (bariatric surgical complication patients) but more of a last responder than a first one, having medical and mental health crisis due to my own bariatric complications that were unpleasant, unprecedented, life threatening and unpredictable even after they were no longer life threatening, for years that have left me for almost 1/3rd of my life now, to live a life with a new normal, I know but only a tiny bit but so well the struggle and the suffering.

Just like most medical professionals, frontline workers and first responders didn’t need COVID-19 to know the fragility and complexity of disease to humans, it’s just that now we are all are confronted by so much more unprecedented unpredictable crisis beyond what even the most stable of psyches couldn’t still possibly comprehend and process constructively, especially in a global state of crisis.

The thing first and foremost is the realization, you didn’t sign up for this, while none of us did, those who spent years in medical school or some formal medical, mental health or first responder training there was really no way to fully psychologically prepare any one regardless of specialty to the challenges and crisis professionally you’re all facing, let alone the personal ones.

If you took the Hippocratic Oath, that was to vow to not do intentional harm, it wasn’t to say that as much of a calling wanting to save others lives is, that it is to be at your own peril and the ones you love, all day, everyday with not just a lack of essential tools but no back up support in sight with all the unknowns that we still have with the pandemic.

The point I’m trying to make, is if the reason why you’re reading this, finding that you’re psychologically drowning in the abundance of others medical and psychological suffering, as well as your own, I’m not going to tell you that you don’t have a right to feel the way you feel.

Because you absolutely have every right to feel overwhelmed, overworked and unsupported and the devastation that comes with that  with no end that’s close in sight with the pandemic.

I’m also not going to throw out all the reasons why it’s wrong for you to be suicidal, that doesn’t help.

As well intentioned as hokey quotes like “put your hand over your heart and feel your heartbeat, that’s purpose and your life matters’ or harsher quotes that claim “suicide ends your suffering and just transfers it to another”, that ain’t probably going to help either, it’s  just going to make you feel worse.

What I am going though to now ask of you, is where you are now, emotionally?

Thinking about suicide, as a possible path out of your suffering? Actually having a plan, with means and a date and your reasons regardless if you’ve wrote them out or not?

Now I am going to ask you that if you are acutely suicidal and are unwilling to seek out professional help, that if you cannot bear right now to see that suicide is not the only path that’s left for you yet, to at least think about postponing it, where you are willing to try and understand better the trauma and grief that’s behind that current chosen path for you as a Plan A and maybe for the time being, make it a Plan B,C,D,E or never, but you may not be ready not to have it as an option.

One thing that is not talked about in the complexity of suicidality, is that while grief and trauma play into it, there is that part where when some of us who’ve tried to die by suicide, it was a misplaced sense of knowing and finding comfort that our suffering would finally be over.

This is not the place but it bears mention, as I’m duty bound and ethically committed to doing right by people in crisis and I don’t want to hurt anyone who might be reading this blog, who’s lost a loved one due to suicide, where again you’re not the target audience for this blog and I do address that in other blogs of mine.

The hopes that I have for physicians, nurses, first responders who are suicidal is that they ideally will get the help they need from others.

But if there is an unwillingness to do that, to try and honor the grief one is experiencing and the trauma and hopefully it will spark the realization that your life right now being in jeopardy, is the priority and hopefully getting you to see that the tools you have to save others lives can be directed in saving your own life, if there is an unwillingness to get professional help.

There is more initiatives now that see the psychological toll but there has to be more plans in place to get more medical staff in the frontlines, not just because of concern that is justified with frontline staff getting COVID-19, as well as other medical health issues that don’t stop just because of the pandemic but because burnout and suicide in physicians and frontline, first responders was an issue prior to the pandemic.

Please know that if you’re a physician, frontline and/or first responder who’s despondent there is help and hope for you, the peace though you desperately need right now, can happen in small doses, as the trauma this has caused, isn’t close to being over either in society or in your psyche but progress can be made where despair isn’t all consuming, as I’m not going to lie and say that it’s a matter of mindset that’s causing your horrific suffering, or that how you feel is going to completely go away soon, as it may not. as it’s the trauma, grief and fear of helplessness and being so overwhelmed in such unprecedented circumstances that cause the despondency and working to overcome it where it isn’t a risk to your life, as far as suicide, will take time, trying a combination of therapies.

And again, I’m so sorry for all of you being so tested and for your sacrifice and suffering the trauma you’ve experienced and your grief.

I hope and pray  though you can find it within yourself your value as a human first, as well as a healer that deserves to take time you may need to work on your own healing before you can save more lives but if you never save another life but your own, I hope you can see the heroes that you are and have always been and always will be.

I can’t stress again, I hope you get outside professional help but if you can’t, I hope you give yourself the dedication and attention to saving your own life like you would with another.

Sending peace and love and hopes and prayers that those who need it will accept that from me and so many who are wanting to help, having some understanding of why you are where you are emotionally…

#ViolentCrimePrevention initiatives HAVE to be strengthened NOW #COVID19

https://www.cnn.com/2020/04/06/europe/russia-shooting-lockdown-scli-intl/index.html

https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/akwpqe/shopper-upset-by-coronavirus-restrictions-runs-over-walmart-security-guard

https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

Emotional Wellbeing During the COVID-19 Outbreak

Important Disclaimers: I am NOT a clinically trained medical or mental health professional or in matters of public safety.

If you or anyone you know, poses a threat to oneself or others, please contact emergency services (again, half my readers aren’t in the U.S. and aren’t even in North America).

***

When I saw above linked articles, I was really sad.

What made me even more sad, was that I wasn’t surprised.

I’m not trying to come off like  I’m this uncredentialed, unrealized and unappreciated genius, cause I’m not.

I’m saying though as an activist/blogger who writes about medical, mental health and violent crime prevention awareness, that I’ve been worried that  it was possible people could/would weaponize the virus itself, a vehicle or actual weapons intending to wound, if not possibly cause fatal harm either online and/or offline, psychologically and/or medically consequentially, in and around homes, places of businesses and in acute care facilities, including, if not especially in and/or around a  hospital.

And I’m also saying that it’s very possible that violent actions are going to still escalate and while I cannot be the person, nor do I think only one person can help solve this, we all must try as hard to be  vigilantly working  on our mental health, tenacity, level of patience and preparedness, as we move through this unprecedented crisis.

As tragic as so many people dying from COVID-19 due to the actuality of the virus, deaths are just as tragic because of it.

The unprecedented #mentalhealth crisis that #COVID19 presents now and will continue to provide after it’s contained…

https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

The next pandemic will be in mental health

https://www.cnn.com/2020/04/04/politics/what-matters-april-3/index.html

Emotional Wellbeing During the COVID-19 Outbreak

Important Disclaimers: I am not a medical or mental clinically trained professional, if someone is in danger of hurting themselves and/or others, please contact emergency services, immediately.

Okay, back up to a few days before Valentine’s Day 2020.

My boyfriend comes home from work where he works for a global shipping company, and asks me “Guess what we’re getting slammed with in packages???”…

I reply back “Guns”.

He’s like “how did you know???”…

Because by then, that Wuhan based physician who tried to warn us about the virus had already passed away.

Because while I’m  not a clinically trained medical or mental health professional nor do I have any form of education in public safety, that in an uncertain time, that has become even more uncertain and scary to so many in the last 6 weeks , a gun would give stable people, possibly a feeling of some control, in a constructive way to protect their people and their possessions.

It would give those who were less stable, a tool to feel more in control in what was looking to possibly be to them, more uncertainty than they could bear.

You see now those who are reporting the news are in the news because of COVID-19.

We’ve seen famous, wealthy, noteworthy  and/or health people succumb to the damage the virus causes, as well as the first responders and frontline health workers become infected, some passing away, but everyday fighting to save other people’s lives, in circumstances most of us could’ve NEVER seen coming unless one is Bill Gates or was the genius that was Dr. Stephen Hawking.

We’ve seen people licking toilets or coughing in public saying they have COVID-19 whether they do or not.

We’ve seen people who know they have COVID-19 or suspect it and  not warn others, not social distance for what would be reasonable reason normally, such as having a loved one in the hospital and wanting to be there for them or unreasonable and unconscionable reasons to spread the virus.

Law Enforcement has seen an increase in domestic violence calls.

You have people who can’t seek acute care either without risk or even in epicenter like NYC now (and for some time) patients dying in unprecedented circumstances and their loved ones and medical professionals responses and their own suffering and knowing that here in the U.S., the feeling of being in crisis will have it’s effect on people.

I’ve been very blessed that everyone I love the most so far, is okay.

And today was supposed to be for my own mental health, a day where I took a break from watching the news but even the little I’m online or offline, as I got out today which is rare but was needed as I had prescriptions and food to get, there’s a reminder everywhere of the challenges COVID-19 has presented.

As others have said, we can’t just look for the helpers, like Mr. Rogers was famous for comforting us, we have to be the helpers, if we can.

And if one can’t help, at least be careful as they are capable of, to not to do any further harm to one another.

I can’t stress how important though it can help, that if you can just positively help someone is that you do so when you can.

Sometimes doing that is just reminding one another that we care and you see many initiatives online and off, that is doing this.

Sometimes, though it’s more sad and scary, but necessary to say at times, that people have to be just as vigilant about their mental fitness and agility, as some are with their physical health and fitness and realize some aren’t in control of either and/or the risks they present to others and be prepared for that and the unexpected in people and in patients that may have been physically and mentally fit in the past.

As sometimes medical crisis can cause mental health ones and I would know about that, almost better than anyone, unfortunately.

As much as we can try to convey and we can’t stop, that we’re in this together, there are so many factors here that will provide mental health challenges and crisis, that while may not rival  the medical crisis we’re in, that we still have to personally and as a community, professional or not, have to actively and constructively prepare for, both in ourselves and with others and we’re going to have to do this in a manner that’s  consistently, comprehensively and with patience and vigilance going forward as we all adjust and evolve because of the devastation and challenge that COVID-19 has now presented to everyone globally.

Kindness and patience with ourselves and with one another, while has always been important, is going to be of utmost importance, now, as we try hard to move forward.

#mentalhealth #covid19

https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

The next pandemic will be in mental health

Emotional Wellbeing During the COVID-19 Outbreak

While I didn’t think I was the only one worrying what is said on this blog that I’m linking, I have been wracking my brain for the last 3 days, feeling an urgent need to see something like this or a need to write something similar and then gratefully the blog linked up above, that came in Kevin M.D email tonight.

I’m so grateful that my non clinically trained cognitively disabled self didn’t have to address this, as while I’m good at providing comfort, I suck at being calm or concise.

I am so grateful for Dr. Hamdani for writing this wonderfully insightful and helpful blog.

And you will be grateful too, if you choose to read it, whether topic is and/or was on your mind.

Even if it wasn’t…

Peace…

Shhhh, #essentialworkers need their sleep!!!

 

I get that for a multitude of reasons, people need to get outside or in their homes let off some steam.

Just please keep in mind that different neighbors may be taking a 5 p.m nap on a Thursday or a 10 a.m one on a Sunday,  because they work in a job that isn’t set to a traditional schedule in time or day of the week.

Please realize that most people do not want to hear loud nuisance noise for extended period of times and try to do better.

If one is feloniously stupid and/or thoughtless enough to think they should be able to do what they want, when they want like all the time,  when they live in any kind of community, well I’ll still wish you well.

As well as hope that they’ll come to realize one day that they don’t want to want to be without common consideration, any longer, either.

Peace… like literally!!!

griefyard…

https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

Emotional Wellbeing During the COVID-19 Outbreak

This blog is with the intent to provide some kind of showing of care, concern and comfort for those who are suffering or feeling some level of grief stricken in time of global loss of life and sudden major change of life circumstances that are filled with uncertainty.

I’ve found while above song that I’m linking is perfect as it is, in the chorus “bring them all back to life”, I’ve added in my head “please don’t let them die” and “please let them all stay alive”, help me identify the sense of empathy I have for those who are suffering, and a desire to show caring, even though there’s so next to nothing I can do, other than that and identify how demoralizing it can feel so powerless.

As well give safe space  for  humans to help stay united, in our joined humanity and caring for others, that just putting out there that others have concern and compassion, can hopefully help someone who needs gentle reminding in time of suffering, that others care enormously about them and their loved ones and their losses.

Anyways I’m so sorry for those who are suffering for so many different reasons and I’m so  terribly sorry for your loss.

#SuicideAwareness and sensitivity to #suicide is still needed now, more than ever…

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

http://www.befrienders.org (crisis resources globally)

Emotional Wellbeing During the COVID-19 Outbreak

Important Disclaimers: I am not a clinically trained medical or mental health provider or am I trained in matters of public safety.

If you or someone you know is in danger by circumstances, themselves or others, please contact emergency services and/or a medical or mental health professional, immediately.

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The catalyst for this blog is due to the caveat I have as an activist who does activism not just for medical crisis but for mental health ones.

My normal disclaimer would be in addition to contacting emergency services, would be get to an acute care facility, if someone is in potential mortal danger.

We’re in a global pandemic though with COVID-19 that is taxing resources, in multiple ways and ways no one has quite seen before.

And as I tried to get across in my last blog, someone for many reasons and of many kinds, is in crisis and has been since humankind has been on Earth.

As someone who does activism for “fighting to stay alive” and that also means different things to different people for multiple reasons, as well.

For those though who deal with depression and other mental health issues that could be fatal to themselves or others, where it’s still so stigmatized, this is a gentle reminder not to be rushing or harsh with judgement.

The most read blog of mine, ever is a blog I wrote almost 2 years ago titled “How to help those who are suicidal when they don’t want anyone to know that they are”.

It’s not my only blog regarding suicide awareness, prevention and ideation but it’s read 5 times as much as any of my other blogs about suicide combined  on a global scale (half my readers aren’t just not in the U.S. but also not just in North America) and twice as much as my most read blog on gastric bypass reversals, which while I really don’t want to be known well online or offline, like at all or like ever,  is probably a more unique thing I blog about.

I wanted to wait before writing this, being a little more clearheaded, having my own personal issues to deal with but the hits to that above mentioned blog and other blogs about suicide are being read more since COVID-19 became a global pandemic.

The thing I learned with my complex disabilities, is that it’s not just I who cannot help everyone, or even myself at times.

Which everyone can relate to, at some time in their life for multiple reasons.

But to remind that there is help without shame or stigma in multiple forms for those who are fighting a battle with severe depression, and/or other adverse medical, mental, environmental or circumstances tangible or not, to themselves or others,  to stay alive that if you’re in mortal danger, you need to contact immediately appropriate support services.

It helps to remind oneself of that.

It helps to remind oneself of a good thing they are capable of, I know this from being aesthetically unpleasing to most humans, for so long and my unique disabilities, sometimes you can’t see the good but it’s identifiable, even though in some of us, it’s intangible.

It helps to take breaks from constant stressors and while it may take work for those who have a tendency and it’s hard to separate from distressing thoughts, especially in trying times, it’s possible and it helps.

In my case reading a book or magazine or watching a travel video or listening to my favorite music helps.

I hope you can find a positive distraction that will work for you and it may take acute professional help to get to that place.

I can only hope that like any other serious blogs I write about life and death situations find it’s way to those who need help but can’t see why they and their life is worth fighting for, which is hard to see in a crisis of many kinds and that those in need, get that help so that they can give live the best possible life, given their circumstances and what that looks like in us is different and sometimes more evolving that we can cope with at times and there is no shame in needing help to see that.

Just know help is out there, others can relate to the most unique and or bizarre circumstances and you aren’t alone and others do care.

Peace….

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