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https://kstp.com/news/nurse-assaulted-at-anoka-treatment-facility/5348988/

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IMPORTANT DISCLAIMERS: I am NOT a clinically or credentialed trained professional in medical and mental health. I have absolutely no education in medical, mental health, law, law enforcement and in public safety.

Unfortunately, due to the link above, my normal disclaimer of when people who are at high risk for hurting themselves or others does NOT apply because the victim that is the catalyst of this blog, as well as other victims were employees of Minnesota treatment centers for the severely mentally ill and MN DOC employees who were violently attacked or killed while their assailants were already incarcerated.

In full disclosure, as someone who has non violent mental health issues and came super close almost 11 years ago, of finding out first hand what it’s like to be a resident of the facility, that the above victim who was an employee, in above link was violently assaulted last night, in my case, (unlike the assailant/patient/resident who had past history of being convicted of violent crime prior to his commitment) with no prior legal history other than 2 traffic offenses and 1 psych hospitalization, 2 weeks prior to a suicide attempt that there was an attempt (which was stayed) to have me committed to Anoka Metro Regional Treatment Center in Summer of 2008 status post of my 1 and only suicide attempt, the only other civil legal history I have, was the unlawful detainer that I received after the commitment attempt and I had no prior civil or criminal history other than above mentioned citations in 2008 and I haven’t had any since then.

That will be a topic of another blog. As I wasn’t completely blameless, just in a non violent medical and mental health crisis who was never in danger of hurting anyone else other than myself.

I couldn’t though write this blog without being transparent about my own history and the factors that played into my medical and mental health history, I write about as a non monetized blogger, in hopes to help others in crisis, get help sooner and to advocate for more treatment options, so what I went through and the ones I love, didn’t go through in vain and to prevent that if possible from someone else having to go through the same thing.

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I’ve been blogging for years now, about violent crime prevention.

I knew after though after writing blogs about local violent crimes and seeing the records of those who perpetuated those horrific acts, if something at the time, especially since many of those who I’ve written about in the last several years to a month ago, their criminal histories even for someone who has NO formal training in medical, mental health, criminal forensics could possibly forecast that their crimes could escalate to tragic violent physical harm to innocent others and to violent fatalities.

When I tried to research initiatives for safety improvements and injury statistics for employees at AMRTC where that nurse was violently assaulted, at St. Peter Regional Treatment Center, as well as Minnesota Department of Corrections stats, when an Oak Park Heights correctional officer who was  murdered ,when trying to help a fellow correctional officer who was also being brutally attacked by an inmate , last fall.

The above table in this blog, which was is ALMOST 30 years old, was as close as I got to finding any statistics online for AMRTC.

I got a little closer seeing a few articles about staff picketing about safety in the past  and even a little more insight when reading online employee review sites, where employees, even recently, where they share how rewarding it feels to help patients they work with, they DO NOT feel safe at work.

I have confidence that change will happen one way or another, I think primarily it will occur because employees are going to fight for safer conditions in that facility and in other facilities where people have to work with people who are confined because they of the public safety threat that they pose (which I need to clarify again ABSOLUTELY not everyone in a mental health treatment center or even in prison, long term committed/incarcerated  are violent predators or have past violent crime convictions , but quite a few do).

The problem is, that is too late for the nurse who could’ve been killed last night and if changes aren’t IMMEDIATE, more unnecessary risk is posed to these employees.

It’s also at the risk of employees in local medical centers where more acts of violence are taken place and those employees are also claiming fear of being harmed on the job, that there aren’t more safety initiatives in place.

As well as the risk to the general public, as exhibited horrifically last month when that 5 year old boy was thrown from the 3rd floor by someone who had incurred 3 charges in the Summer of 2015, 2 of them were for violent acts and one was for property damage, he then until 2019 had 6 traffic offenses, which is not a stretch that his blatant disregard for the law, didn’t lead to him weaponizing a motor vehicle to harm or kill someone.

What Emmanuel Aranda didn’t have though, was any civil legal action in regards to his mental health, which had exhibited propensity to be violent which he exhibited several times, in a short of period of time, 3 1/2 years before he would attempt to kill someone on purpose.

People who work to help others in medical, mental health and law enforcement deserve protection and a right to a violence free workplace and in public , just like the general public deserves that same kind of protection wherever they may be.

Changes in law have to take place, more initiatives on mental health need to take place and if people cannot feel safe when working with people who already incarcerated or confined due to the potential safety hazards they present to the general public, more innocent people are going to be violently assaulted, if not killed.

This is not Minnesota specific, obviously.

This is happening all over the country, as well as the world.

But we have to do something to honor these victims, to prevent these tragedies from happening over and over again.

It’s just going to take more effort to pass legislation that concentrates on the rights of victims or potential victims with a concentrated effort by public safety, DHS, DOC, legislators, law enforcement, psychiatric and medical professionals and violent crime activists, so innocent people have the chance of being protected like convicted assailants are.

And maybe for repeat violent offenders, whether they are incarcerated, confined or walking free like Brian Fitch (I should probably clarify Sr, as his son by the same name, is currently racking up his own record)  was who had dozens of violent felony convictions before he murdered Mendota Heights Officer Scott Patrick in 2014, by studying them more might be able to predict on the side of safety their inability to be rehabilitated.

My thoughts and prayers are with the victim of Thursday nights assault, family and friends, as well as all the employees who’ve been assaulted, if not killed while working trying to help people that may not have any control over their violent tendencies but their confinement doesn’t protect the people who are treating them.

Note: Being a disabled activist, I welcome ANY productive and constructive feedback from any entity or party where if I missed something or could be educated more, about prevention, planned enhanced safety initiatives or anything that can help people be safer.

I do also as an activist will address non violent mental health patients who are misplaced in either jails, prisons or the safety nets that could help prevent others like me, where safety nets for both myself and my family could’ve prevented an unnecessary loss of freedom in someone who posed absolutely NO threat to the public.

Just not on this blog, but given that I am a mental health activist, I didn’t want the population of people who follow me, who are non violent mental health patients to feel I am not going to address their right to freedom, safety and security initiatives , in future blogs.

Just NOT today.

This blog was published 5/10/2019

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Important Disclaimers: I am NOT a clinically trained medical or mental health professional, nor am I trained in matters of law enforcement or public safety.

IF anyone you know, is in danger of hurting themselves or others, please contact emergency services, immediately.

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“I’d rather be a little nobody than an evil somebody”- Abraham Lincoln

I haven’t blogged for awhile…

Sometimes, I get to the point with school shootings, domestic homicides and plots, if not attempts that are tragically executed to kill a lot of people, are now becoming a daily event, I’ve been kind of stewing in a lot of sadness for what our society is becoming more violent, on an hourly basis.

While in da olden days when I was young, when it came to anti-bullying efforts we were stuck with “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me” and we now know that neither about that adage is actually true, and we are trying now, to find ways to prevent all this violence and bullying going on, there’s one thing I’d like to suggest that might help.

I’ve never wondered why, as someone who was so bullied for so long and then that probably factored into mental health issues of why I didn’t hate others, I just hated myself.

I’ve blogged ad nauseum about the unintentional hurt it caused people I love, I don’t need to rehash it.

I never wanted hurt or harm to happen to those who’ve hated on me for the last four and half decades.

I just wanted it to STOP!!!

To help others, whether they turn hating on them inwardly or to others, the one thing I think that could help others realize that everyone has a right to a peaceful and violence free life, is trying to find one thing, and concentrate on that, about a person or a population of people, that one is predisposed to not like and find something kind, to think about them or something you might have in common, with like us being human beings and all.

That’s the only ONE part of the challenge.

The 2nd part is, while teaching kindness in our society and the sanctity of life, is just as, if not more important and imperative as it’s ever been, the second part is more of an actual challenge.

What and who you choose to find kind things to say about, keep it to yourself.

If you want to do something public, positive, proactive and productive, make your social media and offline spaces “hate-free” zones.

“The best way to destroy your enemy is to make them your friend”- Abraham Lincoln

Okay, maybe that’s asking too much.

Not everyone can be friends with each other.

But, WE all can make an effort NOT to make people their enemy, and have active hate campaigns, both in words and in actions to people, just because they are of different races, cultures, gender identification, religion, weight,ideologies and political affiliations than ourselves.

And it’s not terribly difficult, even with someone you may have major differences in almost everything with, to find ONE good thing about them.

And just concentrate on that and their right, just like your own, to a peaceful and violence free life.

Because, you don’t just have to choose from being a little or big nobody and an evil somebody, you can be your authentic true self, who’s not perfect but is a good somebody.

Just don’t participate in hate of ANY kind in the world.

“Whatever you are, be a good one”- Abraham Lincoln

 

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Important Disclaimer: I’m not a clinically trained medical or mental health professional, nor am I trained in law enforcement or public safety.

If you or someone you know is capable of hurting themselves or others, please seek emergency help right away.

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It goes without saying, I didn’t want to write this blog.

I want to respect that families are suffering and grieving about 2 separate horrific tragedies that happened in Minnesota on Friday, April 12, 2019.

My last 2 previous blogs addressed them.

The reason though I’m writing this again, with really wanting to respect the privacy that these families have asked for, need and deserve, is the court of social media felt one was more newsworthy than another.

To repeat, last Friday, a 24 year old man, threw a 5 year old boy off the 3rd floor at Mall of America in an attempted homicide.

That tragedy made national news outlets.

About 5 hours before that tragedy though, a 36 year old father in the greater Minnesota area, has been suspected of intentional arson to kill him and the 4 children in the  house and he did horrifically kill his 1 year old daughter and 2 year old son, before succumbing to his own injuries, the next day.

The current status of the 9 and 7 year old are that they are recovering.

I spent most of this weekend, following the local news about both families, then following the GoFundMe pages for the families, seeing the comments about the Minneapolis man charged with the attempted homicides and knew I was going to have to write a 3rd blog, especially when I saw on Twitter of how my last blog was so misguidedly being shared on Twitter for the wrong reasons, which I’ll address in a separate blog.

Again, a reminder, I blog as a non violent  medically, mentally and cognitive disabled mother to hopefully remove stigma, as I made horrible mistakes and was so unintentionally neglectful of my children, that still managed to cause emotional hurt to those I love the most and while it irrevocably changed my family’s life, almost 11 years ago, so others don’t make the same mistakes I did and get help sooner than I did.

I try to explain that hearing how bad I was my entire life based upon what I looked liked and weighed, didn’t have just horrible consequences for me, unfortunately as unintended as it was, it had for those I love the most.

To honor these families and many others, I have for years been saying that there is more work to be done in how we deal with those who have issues that could be harmful to themselves and others, whether it’s strangers or their own families.

That it doesn’t matter what everything on the outside looks like, in the era of social media, your houses, your cars, your vacations, your children, what you look like, if inside one is hurting and is capable of harming themselves or another.

That words and actions and lack of them, matter.

They matter A LOT.

That there is hate limit that everyone has when it comes to be targeted, before it turns inward in some manner or it hurts someone else and is now becoming more deadly to innocent others.

That if someone isn’t doing anything that risks one’s life in any way, maybe it isn’t their right or place to throw judgement at them, in any form.

Absolutely, everyone can work on being more careful on their words and actions that could hurt another, it should’ve always been that way, but it’s never mattered as much, in the digital era.

I didn’t digress.

I am trying to concentrate on showing those families the respect they deserve, trying to help in such a miniscule way, of point out, there’s multiple ways to help them with support, as well as in trying to prevent these tragedies from happening in the first place.

The GoFundMe for the Landen, the little boy who was horrifically targeted at Mall of America, has met its goal.

If you want to help the  family for the burial expenses of Landon age 2 and Spencer age 1, who died on Friday, in the fire  that their father set in Big Lake, MN,  you can use the link below.

https://www.gofundme.com/1lugpwmwtc?fbclid=IwAR0XzXgE8GaNQWfZwqfK-Za0IOaGsWyzeHGSQuoGDG1Zn13OJtTwLEzASfQ

But again, a gentle reminder that last Friday in Minnesota, their were TWO separate horrific acts of violence against 5 children under the age of 10.

For 2 completely different reasons and in 2 completely different circumstances.

And that all of us can do our miniscule part to try, going forward, to prevent these tragedies from occurring, by being mindful of not stigmatizing any population of people, and just concentrating on trying to be a part of the solution that helps prevent them from happening and supporting others, when they do tragically occur, and encouraging those in need of help, of getting it, before they do irrevocable harm to themselves or others.

Note: I will NOT publish any comments that could  be hurtful to anyone.

 

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Important Disclaimers: This blog is trying to provide some kind of controlled and constructive, albeit maybe not the most conventional way for those of us who are heartbroken at what happened at the Mall of America, yesterday.

We can only hope that justice is served in a court of law, we can’t fault everyone or suspect everyone, who looks like the man who was charged with this crime.

One of my most read blogs EVER, was about a local police killer, white and who probably had the most violent and active criminal histories ever, before he became homicidal.

IF, you find it in your heart to forgive someone, so be it, also if you don’t like profanity, please don’t read.

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Yo Emmanuel,

Hopefully you’ll never read this, that you’ll end up fucking rotting in a prison for the rest of your fucking pathetic miserable life.

This ain’t for you, this is for everyone, who’s heartbroken for the 5 year old boy you might have potentially killed and his family, their family friends, our community, as I’m sure for many of   those of us who woke up, checked the news to see if there was any answers about the little boy, but such is in my case, just found that they released your name.

And to my horror, I saw when I checked your criminal history,  which is free, legal, public and online, as it applies to the State of Minnesota, you did something like this before.

You were on probation, for an assault, I’m assuming at the Mall of America, due to the terms of your probation.

I guess we can only hope justice is served better, this time, as it applies to what you did yesterday.

Hopefully, when you have to answer to that family, where there is still so much unknown, which should remain that way for the public, while physicians valiantly try to save this little boy’s life.

The thing is though, you’ll never have the right answer, regardless if you’re capable ever of feeling remorse for what you did and it’s kind of fucking hard to believe that you would, given the fact this wasn’t your first assault and your victim was 5 years old.

I just needed to get this off my chest, while I continue to pray for your victim and his family, I even pray for your family.

I am just NOT  praying for you.

And I’m also praying that for whatever vile reason that made you commit such a heinous act of violence, doesn’t create more violence towards any innocent person, given the degree of instability and savageness, in our society, now.

Note: I make no apologies for what I say. I use words sometimes, strongly, because I can get away with that, to vent, I have no sponsors with this blog, I don’t have a job that I have to worry about being fired from.

If you saw the search terms that people find my blog, it’s one thing to vent when a tragedy happens, it’s another when you see people who find the things I write about for the wrong reasons, which as an activist and blogger, I’m trying to PREVENT these tragedies or in rare cases, in a “vent” blog, give people ways to constructively express their sadness and their anger when tragedies like this occur.

I can’t be clearer, that this crime needs to be prosecuted in a court of law. That the issue with the defendant has to be with what he did, not what he looked like.

Please choose your words thoughtfully if you choose to respond. Thanks.

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Important Disclaimers: I’m not a clinically trained medical or mental health professional, nor trained in law enforcement or public safety.

If you or anyone you know, is a danger to yourself or others, please contact emergency services.

I didn’t bother watching much of the news nationally, today.

It was a heartbreaking day, locally.

First that hit the news, was a 24 year old man, pushed or threw (investigation being ongoing, there’s not much information being released, yet)  a 5 year old boy he didn’t know from the 3rd floor to the first floor at Mall of America, where the child is reported to be in critical condition.

In greater Minnesota, a 36 year old father set fire to his house today, killing his 2 youngest children who were toddlers, his other 2 children who were 9 and 7 are in the hospital and the father is in critical condition.

I’m just going to concentrate on today’s events here locally regarding children that were murdered  by family or an attempted murder by a stranger.

We need more initiatives that can help people realize that everyone, regardless of age has a right to a peaceful and violence free life.

These 2 isolated incidents had 5 victims, 2 of them dead, all under the age of 10 years old.

I keep internally debating on whether or not that empathy for others who are different can be taught, that people who have severe mental illness diagnosed or not can have more initiatives in place for education on how important the sanctity of life is and if people can’t see that for themselves, that they do not infringe in any way in everyone’s right to have a healthy peaceful life without all this violence that is now happening on a daily basis, locally, nationally and around the world.

The victims, their families (although truthfully I’m not praying for that father), friends and communities, are in my thoughts and prayers.

With my own disabilities, I can’t do more than bring awareness of the urgent need for more resources and initiatives in place.

And the urgent need for people to check in one another, as well as having more initiatives and if one feels that they are in danger of hurting themselves and others, that they get the help they need for themselves and/or others, so that more of these tragedies can be prevented.

Editorial Note: Blog published while it’s still April 12th, 2019 here in Minnesota.

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Important Disclaimers: I am NOT a clinically trained medical or mental health professional, nor am I trained in any forms of law enforcement or public safety.

If you or someone you know is in danger of hurting themselves or others, please contact emergency services, immediately.

Oh, here we go.

Call this the sanctity of human life manifesto of someone who dabbles in human rights, but to add a touch of fun for my haters, I’ll add I’m white, female, old, fat, Jewish and ugly.

Well, on the outside, which is obviously what only matters to people who hate.

And where we differ religiously, politically, culturally, gender, socioeconomics and race, for those who are intellectually, mentally and spiritually impotent who will hate aggressively and sometimes their rage will be deadly.

This the my take on the massacre yesterday at 2 mosques in New Zealand, that horrifically killed 49 people.

Anyone who is capable of that kind of evil horrific devastation in a place of worship, ANY place of worship, is an evil coward.

I’d like to use profane words, but I’m trying to make this blog a safe space for people who might find that language offensive, because I honestly think in the end, an evil coward is the worst thing anyone could be.

For someone who leans liberal but does have a conservative streak, like I do,  I’m not trying to cause pain when I say, I don’t think a huge concentrated effort in gun control will help prevent some of  these massacres.

We are in a different era, a sensational one spawned from what’s bad about the internet and social media.

Anyone who could kill innocent people praying, in a place of worship, if they can’t shoot at them, will try to kill people they hate in a different way, even we could come up with supersmart technology that could render guns ineffective, people will still continue to die from numerous ways that can be used to commit mass murder.

Because, these massacres that keep happening over and over again, aren’t rooted in the HOW or even in the WHERE, they are rooted in the WHY.

I get that as a reclusive activist, maybe people aren’t ready to accept that you cannot legislate hate and addiction, away.

I came up with the title of this blog when trying to figure out privately, why these particular hateful  racist, islamophobic and antisemitic mass murders committed by white supremacists keep happening over and over again.

And I thought, that it’s pathetic  they are “White ISIS/White “(CR)ISIS”, but worse, because there is usually some organic privilege, that whether or not these people where sometimes they grow up in an environment of hatred,  become enraged at an older age at a population for a multitude of reasons, if they weren’t nurtured in it, when they were young and will still commit or at least try to,  these atrocities.

I’ve been trying as an activist/blogger to figure out if it’s possible, if empathy and trying to instill in people the fundamental right all humans should have of a peaceful life with without risk of physical  mental harm and/or death, can be taught, in hopes of preventing all and any kind of murders and other horrific acts of violence, in the digital era.

I don’t know, I can only hope that more initiatives are introduced that teach the importance of how we can all peacefully coexist with people who look, think and have beliefs differently then we do, is actually possible.

Starting from the time when people are very young to lifelong and hopefully this will happen sooner than later.

And then maybe, just maybe,  we might have a shot of preventing some of these horrific tragedies.

My thoughts and prayers are with the victims, the families and friends of the victims who were murdered at the New Zealand mosques and the entire Muslim community.

Note: Any comments that aren’t constructive to peace and people, will not be posted. Because this isn’t my first time calling out a group of haters (i.e. Project Harpoon) any death threats that I should receive because of this blog, will be forward to law enforcement.

Because, while there isn’t much that’s enviable about me, I still know how to help people and when I don’t like someone who’s operating on the offensive in their transactions with me or others, am still intelligent enough to use words, because one thing I’m not,nor should anyone be, is an ignorant, stupid, hateful and  violent coward.

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Dear Meghan, (not that I ever expect “open letter” type of blogs to make it to the famous people, that I write to, it’s more of putting it out to the universe, in hopes to help while I still hope to retain my privacy as a reclusive introverted activist and private person).

I saw today’s clip of The View on You Tube, and it’s hard not to feel your pain, when topics regarding cancer come up, such as the interview with Ricki Lake.

It’s also hard, if one is stupid enough like I am, to read the comments such as today and in past interviews where your grief is still so raw but so understandable.

I think of your dad, often.

I feel bad because some of the reasons why I miss John McCain are purely selfish.

Our country needs him, now more than ever.

There would’ve never been a good time for him to pass, in that regard.

But it goes beyond my scope of comprehension of the loss that you feel but so bravely show, that you show that people have to grieve the loss of their most beloved on their own terms and there are those of us, even if we can’t comprehend the magnitude of your loss, admire that bravery and immense love you have for your Dad.

The one thing that was crystal clear, that your Dad was so proud of all his children.

Another was that he trusted you would find your own path and would be of greatness unique to you, as much great that you’ve already done, that there was more greatness in you, to come out, as you grow even more into the wonderful woman that you are.

I believe that you will be a part of what’s needed to find a cure and less invasive treatments for Glioblastoma, like Joe Biden has, with the tragic loss of his son, Beau.

I believe that will only though be a part of what amazing legacy and wonderful things you will do, you’ve already showed that people can be conservative but with somewhat of an open mind, not seeing conservatism in black and white, you’ve already accomplished so much with that.

My objective with writing this, is that just like your Dad was a one of a kind national treasure, you are an an amazing woman with a lot of gifts, your intelligence, your inner and out beauty, your love and your loyalty and passion to do the right thing and to do so, in front of a global audience which can be so difficult when there is so much hate in this world, something I hope you can not let deter you from being you, which I don’t think it can and doing what you feel is right, that will continue to help make the world a better place.

Not just because of your amazing father, but because of who you are, Meghan McCain.

Peace, Lisa

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